Words just do not even begin to express how much I am missing Jason...
There is just something about the weather turning cooler and football season in full swing. This is Jason's favorite time of the year...maybe that is why I am missing him so much right now. Don't get me wrong, I always miss him, but lately it has just been harder. Its one of those things that just hit by surprise.
This morning the kids and I were outside playing enjoying the nice fall-like weather along with everyone else in the neighborhood. I found myself watching everyone...playing football with their child, putting out fall decorations, or riding bikes...it made me so sad...I gathered the kids up as fast as I could and got them in the house before I started crying. I am sure you think I must be weird and some probably even think I need medication, but please just know that I am not sitting here all day crying...it was just a moment. Just a moment when I was a little envious of the families around me. Its been 7 months and I am lonely, sad, and missing my husband...what more can I say???
Jason ~ I enjoyed watching the game with you today. Even if we are thousands of miles a part, it was so neat to experience something with you at the same time. I love you so much!
5 comments:
it is completely understandable that you miss him!! how could you not! It is so neat, cause you have been on my mind so much and i have been praying for you- the Lord is putting you on our hearts to get you through this! I know I am not there with you(which I am sad about), but you have been amazingly strong!! Love you
bethany
Jessica,
I know it is hard but you are doing an amazing job while Jason has been gone. I know how hard it is especially with 2 children. I am here if you need me.
Kim
i second bethany. it is so completely understandable for you to miss jason and to have emotional moments- you deserve them!!! in hard times, everyone needs moments to break down, and let God carry you through. you have done a wonderful job of staying positive during this trial, and clinging to The Word for comfort. your strength and faith is an encouragement to me!!!!
you're in our prayers
love,
layne
I can really understand, and I just know how you must have felt....and you are validated. Just think 7 months down; wow. Praying for you and all the influence (keys) that you will have because of this experience. HUgs
This post has made me so sad. I am so sorry Jessica. You are so much stronger and braver than I could ever be. I am praying for you and Jason! I am so glad you go to watch the game together! :)
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