I am happy to report that Jackson is doing so much better today. Thank you for your prayers! I also think that he is sensitive to the fact that his mommy is having a hard day. Jack was able to talk to Jason last night for a little while so I know that was so good for him. Jack also had a fun play date today! (thank you so much Jamie for watching the kids so I could shower and thank you for the happy's) Now that Jack is having a better day, Madeline decides it is her turn to show out. I am already running on reserved energy so it is only fitting that Madeline would be up every hour last night. Just when I think I can't take it anymore (and close to a break down on the phone with my mom) my precious Aimee calls. She reminds me "teething" and sure enough here come the molars! (thanks Aimee for reminding me and encouraging me...your strength and wisdom are amazing!)
Jason is doing good. He is busy training. I think he enjoyed talking to Jack last night as much as Jack enjoyed talking to him. ;) We miss Jason so much and are looking forward to the 7th when we get to love on him for another week.
Today I have been in such a funk of self pity. In my flesh I think well you have reason to feel this way, but then I am reminded that I may have reasons, but not rights. Thoughts of weakness consume me. Oh but how sweet it is to know that Grace is made perfect in weakness-in my weakest moments He gives grace. I am learning to rely on Christ more and more. God's grace is sufficient...I need nothing else. Even though I want this journey to be over, I know it is the path chosen for me and I must endure, but not alone for Christ is always with me. He does and will supply the grace I need to endure it. After all tribulation brings perseverance.
And He said to me,"My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.