Monday, March 3, 2008

Oh how I miss 5 o'clock...

Anyone with children knows what I mean by this statement right? 5 o'clock means daddy is home! (or at least on his way) I use to think if I can just make it (in one piece) to 5 o'clock then Jason will be home to rescue me. We would be a sort of "tag team" in our little world of mostly fun sometimes chaos. Oh how I miss my "tag" partner! But as I think about this, it gives me a new appreciation for the wonderful man Jason is. He is gone all day working to provide for this family so I can stay home, then to come home and help (Ok who am I kidding it's not help it's work with 2 toddlers) ;) It's the little things I miss - help with dinner, bathtime, bedtime etc...I have been struggling with the "single" parenting and at times in my saddness over my current journey I realize I am not thankful for everything. Sunday at church we sang "Blessed Be Your Name". I have sung this song countless times, but this time 1 verse really struck me...
Blessed be Your name when the sun's shinning down on me
When the world's all as it should be blessed be Your name.
Blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering blessed be Your name.
Every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise.
And when the darkness closes in, Lord still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord, blessed be the name.
Blessed be the name of the Lord, blessed be His glorious name.
It is so easy to praise God when all is right in our lives and everything is as it should be, but do I praise Him in my suffering? No, not usually. Am I giving Him thanks for this journey? No, not usually. I have been convicted about this. So my prayer is to be thankful in everything and know that God in His providence orchestrated everything and every event in life (the good and the bad). My desire is to trust and pray that God will change me. Only God can change me to do His work.
2Cor. 3:4-5 "And we have such trust through Christ toward God. Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from oursleves, but our sufficiency is from God."

All is well at the Crow house. We survived the stomach virus and trying to get back in a routine. Jack and I went to visit his new preschool (thanks Jenn for keeping Madeline and the happy's) We went this morning and registered him. I can not believe my little boy will be in preschool! I managed to go to Cottontail's village this past weekend twice and got some clothes for the big NY trip! (thanks to my wonderful mom and Mrs. Crow and a big thanks to Mr Crow and Zach for watching the kids so I could shop in quietness) Jason is so busy training. Last night when I talked to him at 9:30 he was still "in class". I pray that he is able to rest. We are so ready for Friday! We are going to spoil Jason!

I will write again soon.
Jessica

4 comments:

April Brown said...

Jessica,
We sing that song at our church as well and it is a favorite. I want you to know how encouraging your updates are. I will be remembering you and your family as you all spend time with Jason.
Love ya,
April

Anna said...

Jessica,
You are such an inspiration! You have been since the day I met you and continue to be now during such a trying time in your life. I'm so proud of you.

Love,

Anna

JascnHarriscn said...

Let us know if you need a babysitter when Jason returns.

Jason and Amy

Jobetty said...

Hey sweetheart
glad to help out
Wish i could do more
I love you MOM and MEME for the babies