Monday, March 1, 2010

Well...

Well...

my friends....

we have....

CONFIRMATION.


Actually, we've had it for a few days now, but I just could not process it. During all the emotions of last week (my granddaddy's funeral) we received confirmation that J will begin deployment #3 later this year. It is official...on paper...dates, places, time etc....the reality of it all hit me yesterday. Not only will J be going "over there" but my brother will be as well. They were both deployed in 2003, but with separate units. This time they will be going together. Having them "over there" together brings on a whole new set of worries...but I know that God will give us even more strength and grace as we face this.

I took some time today to read over some of my past posts (mainly posts since January) and I do want to say this...yes, I am in a pretty sad point right now. Yes, I do feel like A LOT is going on. Yes, if I am not careful and constantly keeping myself in God's word, then it can all become overwhelming and I try to flesh it out. I do know that even in these times when I feel like screaming ENOUGH! that God is using it to grow me and refine me. Though I do not understand it right now...that is ok...I do not need to understand it...I just simply have to trust. And I do. I trust completely. And I comforted by God's promises. Promises for grace, guidance, mercy, and protection.

"Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee wherever thou goes."
Joshua 1:9


Jessica

2 comments:

Aimee said...

Can't imagine your emotions right now.
I am praying for you.

K said...

Just want you to know that I'm praying for you.. Hang in there hun